The funny part is i have never lived the life in a way to survive my life, the important fact about it is i understood the way i follow now is not very effective in this money oriented world, but i know the exact way. Thats my style, even if i know the right way is not this, i go by the way my mind wanna go. Thats more like it.
After all what will this lead to, but if i were to go the best way i would never be me. I will have to forget a lot of friendship for the sake of others, it won't happen. May be thats why i aint very popular among my friends. May be i dont attach myself to them too much. Not because i don't want to but i expect a lot from friends in return. May be i shouldn't expect too much. But i never change you know. There is always 1 thing i don't want them to give more commitment than what i give them. But still i expect a lot of commitment in the general world sense. So i feel alien to this world
I have a few friends who care about me as much as i want to. They are always my best friends irrespective of what they are. I don't care somebody loves me as a friend just to use me as a weapon or a slave. The only thing i worry about is whether he/she loves me or not. Strange isn't it. still just wanna remind you of what i told earlier, i know its the wrong path to go. But I'm what i'm or else you wouldn't find me writing this.
I am so much deviating out of the topic. My love for NiTC is my relationship with the people out here. There are a lot of people in this campus not just the 7 year span of students who are my friends who have shared college with me during my course, my acquaintances(to be exact the people who recognise me) include a lot of people who are related to this campus like a lot of non-teaching and teaching staff.
Another thing i like about this college is its location, Though in a beautiful place in kerala. When it comes to holidays and all you never feel it is in kerala, sometimes not even in India( the recent incident just made that thoughts stronger, Our college had Milad-i-sherif holiday on 10th when kerala had it on 9th, Then the college shifted the holiday so as to match with its Kerala government counterpart, The next day Kerala govt changed holiday just as if they were waiting for us to change ;) ) .We would say that our college is like an island in arabian sea. Neither part of India nor Kerala, but related most to it.
I am so sad to leave this college in two months. Its the only reason i'm thinking should apply for an M.Tech here and be here two years more. But then everybody advises me never ever do that its not good. may be my degrees value can be destroyed. The fact that makes me understand it is the standard of the people i see as M.Techs here, who are mostly gulti guys coming here for M.Tech after a B.tech from some college out there in AP, just because in AP if the groom is an M.Tech you'll get double the dowry offered for a B.Tech. Not to mention the value of an NiT degree.
The College is also changing a lot. The cute aspects of college that existed before does not exist now. All the good aspects are going away. Then the once beautiful campus is becoming a set of buildings. So i also decided not to come back here. So This is most probably the last three months of my love. After that we may meet once in a while, just to cherish old times. The only thing i am worried about is about the status of my love when i return to college, due to many reasons. If they are building up like this, The campus will be ruined soon. I hear even for B.Tech the native state quota is going to be removed. Then it will just be a Gulti-raj out here and the college will be somewhere in Bay of Bengal near AP rather than Arabian sea out here.
Pinne i sit again counting my days to the end of this college life. There are only a few days left. I think i should seriously think about enjoying those days to the maximum. Anyway i'll just stop it now. I had written down too much already....
Dp.....