For those who came late:: Read This First.. Then the rest read from the bottom :)
I have been blogging about my life at NiTC. But then it is a long time since i posted the last item. All this while i have been thinking about whether to write this or not and what to write next. It was all about what one of my friends' the one guy Mr. X told me or rather advised me during our last meeting in college. This is a reply to him too. Why I was like this, why was I left out? Now i understand because i had kept two faces, One at home and one at college. It may be because for me my whole exposure to college was about a different kind of living after about 14 years of spoon-fed life. I tried to hide my face at college at home. That made me less open when i was at home so may be that made me respond a bit uninterested when friends called me at home. Yes, Mr. X if you are reading this it was the reason rather than I was sitting in front of a computer. Thanks you told me now that i really understood it. May be I realised a bit too late now. But it is always better late than never.
So may be my inexperience to the world then did a lot of negatives. May be my hope so I consider the college as a family, all the seniors like elder brothers. But then i tend to consider a lot of opinion from my already existing family before adding one to the close circle that's all. I blindly believe people once they have crossed a level of my trust. I think that has been an evil too. I have never thought or responded before acting on the words of my close brothers. I've loved them back without even thinking why people loved me. What for i have never thought whether they loved me for their personal gains or because it was possible for me to use them. But then to be frank, i have never been so attached with my friends like with my seniors because when i did a work for them i was appreciated a lot, because i was not one among them. But then when i did a work for my friends or my year, i wasn't appreciated as much i was really sad. Now when it is too late only i understand, it was because i was always one among them. Now only i understand rarely people get a lot of appreciated when you do your duty. Once again thanks for opening my eyes.
I have been proved wrong a lot of times. But then i simply think it was an accidental mistake that caused that problem and i still believe in my friends or remove some person from the list i blindly believe in. Believing in some words i have spread a lot of poison around in NiTC. I've hated a lot of people. But now i'm sorry for that. I never guessed the world will be so selfish in all respects. If you ask me whether i learned it is all so selfish, the answer is no. May be i understand that when i'm all alone and blogging. But i never remember it when i'm busy with my friends. I know a handful of friends are out there who always believed me and those who i believe in and i have always suffered when they were not near me. Only thing i am sad about is the people to whom i have caused damage because of ignorance and the fact that my good friends who are close would have been really really close if i had not kept those two faces. But then life is about a lot of ups and downs.
I know you people who read might be feeling this is just my viewpoint. Ya, it is true. I will always see that only and this blog is supposed to be read by me to justify me and what i need while writing this blog is a couple or more of Eye-openers that will allow me to live through a prosperous and happy future career.
...Watch Out For More Episodes soon ...
PS: All characters appearing in this blog are real individuals. Any resemblance to persons, living or dead, is purely intentional. This blog only pertains to my views and it is certainly biased. But these stories i will be true to my conscience and will only be as i know it. It may be wrong from somebody else's view. I might have glorified a lot of things that may seem bad or undesirable those things are those i love and i might have missed somethings that i should have, maybe that is not important to me.. may be i have loathed a lot of glorious things, that will be the things i hate , but I am not at all ready to change my views and no complaints shall be entertained. But real suggestions are really welcome. Anyone is welcome to comment on this and if there is someone so pissed off do whatever you want, I simply don't mind. Tell me your opinion. Also please comment on my blog. Just i want to know whether somebody has actually read mine :)
PPS: sorry I'm late Quest.. I was busy all along.
